Diary of a female Mad-man: What, can't you find me?

I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

First day back at school after a long uneventful summer and I feel... well... sad I guess. I dont know why, but I think maybe if I would let myself cry I would feel alot better. I guess I'll have to do some meditation or something before I go to bed... there is no way I could sleep like this, trouble is im too tired to concentrate.

I could really do with talking to some-one at the moment, but there isnt anyone around who'll listen.

I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes
cause when you showed me myself I became someone else
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You cant keep awake

May gods love be with you

Diary of a Female Mad-man: Chains

Diary of a Female Mad-man: Stop & Think it Over

I Always flirt with death
I could kill, but I don't care about it
I can face your threats
Stand up tall and scream and shout about it

I think I'm on another world with you
I'm on another planet with you

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Okay, so the day started out pretty well untill two things happened.

1. I found out one of my best friend is going out with someone after everyone. I mean EVERYONE.

Even people she doesnt know that well knew first, so that just put my in a brilliant mood.

2. My sister came home and started being such a complete pain in the ass. I am seriously this close to going insane. If she tells me to do one more thing and is then dead sarcastic about it after, I am going to hit her.

Have a great week and comment please

  <3 Lela

Currently Listening Losing Streak By Less Than Jake see related

Diary of a Female Mad-man: Plastic cup polotics

Not much really happened today. We only have like two days left before jazz leaves, so everyone is really upset =(

For those of you who dont move, she is going all the way to california, so its one of those "Never see them again" things. Very bad situation. Claire is ofcourse really upset, because her and jazz have been best friends scince forever, so everyone must wish love to claire, as well as amy and jenny.

Besides that, not much has happened, but I must throw in some randomness while im here.

This is for lucifer ^-^

Fear the attack of the bunneh-frog, and dont forget, buisness studies... Now!

           Comments welcome.

  Lela <3

Currently Listening We Were Here By Joshua Radin Sundrenched world see related

Diary of a Female mad-mad: Suffocating in Doubt

So tired....

I waws up untill about 12:15 last night texting sean who was amazingly drunk, im guessing the usual for a thursday night ^-^

Then I just kicked back with some wine and half a dozen good CD's and just chilled out untill about two when I just passed out I was so tired.

Then- oh joy- I was awoken by builders doing god-knows-what next door.

So, I go online to catch up with lucifer and kat and lo and behold, one of my friends hate me.

Ill start at the beginning:

Ive been hanging out with sean after we were talking in the band practice thingy, and we were hanging out for a bit. No big deal really.

So now all my friends start getting worried that Im going to start smoking. The weird thing is, jonny is the one who will do anything you throw in his direction, sean only really drink a little beer and has done a little canabis. Never once have I been offered a joint/cigarette/drugs. Maddness, no?

So after being told I shouldnt smoke for about the seventh time, I was getting a little pissed off, and now my friend (Or multiple friends.. im not sure yet) hate me.

Oh and if my friend that hates me is reading this, Im really sorry, please read the text I sent you. Oh and dont comment on the fact I posted this on here, because its only Jillybean, lucifer and you that read this, and I would tell them anyway.

   Comments are welcome from all!

                    ~Lela x